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Lately, I’ve been overwhelmed beyond belief. I guess I set myself up for failure…
There are only 7 days in a week. My week is broken down into something like this:

• Monday:
  Band in the AM
  (Possible football leadership meeting)
  School
  Weightlifitng
  SAT Prep Class
  Religious Education (for service hours)
• Tuesday:
  School
  Rehearsal for Joesph (keyboardist)
• Wednesday
  Band in AM
  (possible leadership meeting)
  School
  Weightlifting
  Joesph Rehearsal (keyboardist)
• Thursday
  School
  National Honor Society Meeting
  Joesph Rehearsal (keyboardist) *if needed to be scheduled*
• Friday
  Band in the AM
  (possible leadership meeting)
  School
  Weightlifiting
  Piano at Stations of the Cross at Church
• Saturday
  SAT Practice Exam: 9 am- 1pm
  Chore day
• Sunday
  Mass

It may not seem like a lot, but m ost of the stuff I listed conflicts with one another in the end. The one thing that irritates me is that everyone’s thing is “Mandatory” and the most important – so I have to deal with a bunch of unforgiving, unrelenting people.

I did not voluntarily sign up for the SAT prep course… but it seems necessary for me to even try to get into college.

I’m trying my best to get everything working out… but it’s really hard and I’m struggling. I would simply drop a lot of the stuff, but then it would reflect poorly on my character because many of these things I committed to a long time ago, before I could foresee any conflicts.

I also have a “class” which I regret taking. I told myself last year that I wouldn’t step foot in it before, and I was led to believe things would be better… WRONG! I have to put up with people who have undesirable characteristics in my eyes and that frustrate the ever-living you-know-what out of me. Needless to say, next year’s schedule does not feature this class and instead includes classes that more suite my style: AP Computer Science, Computer Programming, and Finance.

An awful thing has happened to me as a result from my failures: I’ve become overly cynical as I’ve noticed how people react to my failings. I keep seeming to tick people off since I can’t conduct my own life right. For some reason, I guess I’m supposed to be Superman and do everything… it’s not the case at all… I never imagined doing small favors for people would turn out to ruin my life right now. I guess it’s a lesson learned…

I try and be a reasonably tolerant person – giving people the benefit of the doubt, but lately it would seem to come back to bite me. I bend over backwards for some people, yet not one work of “thanks” is uttered.

I guess the moral of this nonsense is: everyone has problems (including myself), deal with them.

kw